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nawab develops this idea in his novel Elliot, in which the protagonist Humbler Humbler shows his doggedings and his out of bounds of support over term throughout his emotional state layer. In this story, Nabob resemblingwise implies that lives ar restricted by beat any pursuit of the historic clipping get out fail at last and cultivate frustration. Whenever Humblers hallucinations, or Ideals of seeking the past, conflict with the reality of the time restrictions, anguish emerges, and escalates Into his sad end of bearing.Actually, Humbler Is deeply affected by his unfulfilled relationship with his nouns yellowish br feature Enable, which results in his seeking of young girls and his pursuit of controlling over time. This red-letter remark in Humblers mind not only leads to his obsession with Elliot, a young girl who serves as some other Enable for Humbler, only if also leads to his concern and anxiety of the elapsing of time throughout his lifetime. Humbler ha s always been hoping to slip the rope of time with the help of his imagination and creation, either going back to the comely memories in the past, or brooking unfading without agedness.However, he is never in control when time flows by hush, he suffers from the Impossibilities of achieving his Ideals. Although Humbler tries to govern the destiny by himself and wishes to stay at one exact moment, he toleratenot achieve his desire In reality. After all, Humbler Is always the prisoner In the c historic period of time, and so be all human bes. Time has a more exceptional tax for Humbler than for normal people because Humbler has special interests in young girls, or in other words, he is a pedophilia.During his life of encountering these young girls, Humbler suffers because of the restrictions on the age of the girls that FLT the requirements of nymphets. Nymphets, as he describes, are nymphs Creatures that are in the midst of the age limits of cardinal and fourteen (p. 16). I n this case, time, which whitethorn contain distinct values for different people, is much more valuable and signifi bottomlandt to Humbler than to usual individuals for the reason that nymphets can only retain their identity for six years.Humbler simply wishes to be left wing alone(predicate) in his pubescent park, in his mossy garden, which Is filled with his desires and appreciation for the nymphets. irrespective of the reality, Humbler has an Ideal of keeping the nymphets playlong round him forever, as fountainhead as never growlong up (p. 21). Once again, Humbler hopes to free the nymphets from the shackles of time, and stay forever young in his which may bring him comfort, but never come true. Stopping aging is always an impossible action that human beings cannot achieve however, Humbler h greys a conceive of of pr fifty-fiftyting the flows of time.He wishes to remain at the equivalent moment, or even return to the past all the period. As a theme of fact, Humblers inte rests in young girls and his actions of seeking nymphets are results from his unaccomplished memories of his childhood. Tracing to his past, Humblers relationship with a neighbor girl, whose name is Enable, affects his after(prenominal)ward life on a large scale. Back in Humblers childhood, Enable, the attractive child a few months his Junior, and he are madly, clumsily, shamelessly, agonizingly in love with each other (p. 2). Unfortunately, the fact that they are unable even to mate as slum children would founder so easily undercoat an opportunity to do leaves permanent regret for Humbler. Still, after twenty-nine years have elapsed, Humbler views Enable as the initial fateful elf who employ to be on that same enchanted island of time as he is (p. 8). The emotions that Humbler has toward Enable are extraordinarily deep and strong, as the fierceness in the untimely love can destroy adult lives (p. 18).The pity of an uncompleted relationship is like a wound that remains ever o pen, (p. 18) and accompanies Humbler for the rest of his life. Deliberately standing at the same position when his unforgettable warehousing ends, Humbler chooses not to leave and ordain up his hope of continuing his memories, even if he is aging while carrying the scar that comes from his unsuccessful relationship with Enable. Humbler himself also realizes that the rift in his life in the glitter of that remote summer (p. 1 3).The rift, which is set between Enable and Humbler, between his past and present, or between his perfection and reality, is the blockage that Humbler hopes to leap over. However, he is hopeless when he is in the hencoop of time, and the required aging makes his childhood that remains on the summer seashore and in the backyard garden unachievable. Nonetheless, Humbler is obstinate with his desire to unhorse the cage of time he starts to fight the powerful fact with his imaginations and creations. Since the time that Enable dies, Humbler starts his seeki ng of some other Enable, which ends up with his obsession of Elliot.Elliot, the objectified Enable, who is genuinely not a real someone but a symbol of Humblers childhood, is served as a satisfaction and relieve of his uncompleted experience with his antecedent Enable. Just as Humbler confesses in the novel, he surrenders to a sort of retrospective imagination, which causes his maddeningly complex prospect of his past (p. 13). So deeply the memories affect Humbler that he is convinced In a accepted magic and fateful way Elliot began with Enable, when he tries to analyze his possess cravings, motives, actions and so forth (p. 4). Elliot, who has the same frail, honey-hued shoulders, the same silky supple bard back, the same chestnut head of hair as Enable does, which cannot hide from the discern of Humblers young memory, is the same child as Enable in Humblers memory (p. 39). Humbler comes up with the hallucination that he has fondled The Juvenile breasts of Elliot and kissed granulated imprint left by the band of her shorts on the last mad immortal day behind the Roaches Roses when he first meets Elliot in the rented house (p. 39).From the descriptions of his feelings, it is inferred that Humbler sees Elliot, the daughter of his landlady, as a substitute, or a replicate of Enable in his to suck in every detail of her bright beauty which he checks against the features of his exsanguinous bride (p. 39). Later, the nouvelle Elliot, which is Humblers Elliot, tends to eclipse completely her prototype (p. 40). Just as Humbler states, he has travel in love with Elliot forever, but the word forever refers only to his own passion (p. 65). In other words, Humblers perpetual love toward Elliot is based on the eternalElliot that reflected in his blood, but not the actual figure existing in reality (p. 65). Indeed, Just as he states later in the story, the attractor Of pure young forbidden fairy child-beauty does not belong to immaturity, but from security Wher e infinite perfections fill the gap between the little give and the great promised (p. 264). It is the feeling of security in filling the gap, or bouncing the rift, which is like the great rosemary never-to-be-had, (p. 264) that drives Humbler to seek his nymphets with great passion.Moreover, the impossibility of Humbler fulfill is desire, which is as dreary as a withered rose, creates the miserable memories for Humbler throughout his life (p. 1 3). In short, Elliot is Just a name for a image that Humbler creates. Humblers possessiveness of Elliot is his attempt to seize his childhood memories regardless of time restrictions. non surprisingly, the same rule of aging is applied to Elliot as well. As Humbler knows well to himself, Elliot forget not be forever Elliot (p. 65). She provide be thirteen on January 1, and in two years or so she will cease being a nymphet and would turn into a young girl En, into a college girl (p. 65). No one can stop the pace of aging no matter how d esperate he is, and uncomplete can Humbler. The result of the endless pursuit of stopping the time is a horror of horrors that rises inside Humbler. The pain of the incapability of preserving a nymphet again makes Humbler suffer. This Elliot, who is only a twelve-year-old girl when Humbler marries her mother and becomes her stepfather, that Humbler can touch and smell and hear and see has iliac creates that have not insofar flared, and a strident voice as well as the liberal brown hair (p. 65).However, she will not be the same Elliot after several years, and will lose forever (p. 66). Constrained by the cage of time, Humbler will never have Elliot as a nymphet forever however, Elliot will always be the girl he is infatuated with Even if she has grown old and not that innocent anymore In his dreams. In his own human beings of dreams Humbler lastly seeks the eternally of youth. Despite the great influence Humblers past acts have on his obsession with nymphets and Elliot, his pas t also affects Humbler in his present life. non a day is easy without anxiety and fear for the flow of time.The fear starts to emerge when Elliot is going to camp and leaving home for two months. For Humbler, the upset of time that two whole months out of the two years of her rest nymphs makes it unaffordable and raises pain (p. 66). Later, after the death of Charlotte, Humbler sets off on a long car trip around America taking Elliot with him. In show to keep Elliot with him and possess her during her short nymphs years, Humbler moves frequently from one village to another and stays at hotels for most of the time, trying to avoid the expectedness of his mean relationship with Elliot and the attention room the police.Moreover, during the trip after Elliot leaves her school, Humbler starts to have thoughts that are more than hallucinations (p. 217) because he is Jealous of every male Elliot meets and acts queerlay because of the worries Elliot from other males, including her clas smates from school, that he tries to cut every possible way for her to access males, which is the normal function that a growing teenage girl does. Humbler hopes to keep Elliot as his nymphet, who will not grow older and only belongs to him, by keeping her from ordinary behaviors and interactions with society that normal girls have.Despite the illustrations above, there are many more expatiate that are described in the novel that reveal the anxiety and pain, which are raised from the restrictions of time, that Humbler suffers. The influence of Humblers anxiety about time, and his failings to prevent the normal things that happen when time flows, make his life miserable and intense, and is mostly likely to cause Humbler to go mad and die from heart disease in Jail. However, Humbler, who portrays himself as a poet, is a romantic dreamer who fights against reality.When the reality of time impedes the way to his ideal world, Humbler finds another way, not through imagination but lite rature, to fulfill his desire. During his time in Jail, Humbler writes the novel Elliot to mourn for the loss of his love. The shallow purpose of Humbler create verbally the novel is to make Elliot live in the minds of later generations (p. 309). Only in this literary world, where Humbler successfully achieves control over time and his lover, can Humbler finally employ immortality (p. 09). Noticing that in this fabricate world exists the only immortality that Elliot ND Humbler may share, Humbler achieves the fulfillment of his desire at last. In other words, sadly enough, it will never be possible for Humbler to pursue his desire in the actual world. Looking at the novel as a whole story applying the theme of time, it provides an assumption that Elliot is the symbol of the past who embodies the most exciting and unforgettable Junctions in Humblers recollections.Besides, Charlotte and sinful are symbols that represent the present because they are obstacles for Humbler to ensue i n the chasing of his dreams. For Charlotte, her existence makes t impossible for Humbler to get close to Elliot and own Elliot as his possession. For Guilty, his intention and actions to seduce Elliot and take her away set Humbler in precautions of losing the possession of Elliot. Time is always Humblers strongest enemy when he strives to achieve his dream of owning a perpetual nymphet.In this way, Humblers behavior of planning to murder Charlotte and actually murdering Guilty can be viewed as Humblers efforts to stop time and end its flow. On the other hand, the eventual flee of Elliot, which symbolizes the loss of the past, implies the ND of Humblers dream to escape from the cage of time. To cite one line of the poem from T. S. Eliot, That time is no healer the patient is no longer here. Elliot has gone and left Humbler, as well as his childhood times time is elapsing from one blink of an eye to the next, never stopping. It is inevitable that Humblers dream of governing time will finally be disillusioned no matter how hard he tries to pursue it. In conclusion, no one can escape the cage of time, and neither can Humbler. In the cage of reality, none of Humblers desires will be achieved however, Humbler has achieved them in the end in his fabricate world which is full of imaginations and hallucinations.The unfulfilled relationship with his former lover Enable, being the cause of Humblers desire to govern time, affects his aftermath life greatly by causing fear and anxiety for Humbler. To summarize, Humbler has never succeeded in breaking the cage of time to achieve his desire to stop time slapping. Moreover, it can be inferred that maybe another perspective, it can be construe that desire is the only thing that is over reality, which allows Humbler to break through the cage of time with his imaginations and be an idealist of his own.